I have come to the conclusion that one of the most difficult things to do in this life is to find that perfect point in time, that perfect place with that perfect person where everything else just seems to stop existing and where there is really intimacy, not of bodies (or maybe as well) but most importantly of soul and mind
There is nothing like finding that moment, the moment where one's soul can be opened and stripped off its facade and its irrelevant worldly details. Likewise, nothing hurts more than having given oneself away unconditionally and having been (purposely or otherwise) spurned or even not getting the same from the other person. It hurts so much inside.
Life is very short and we spend it mostly on mundane things and irrelevant details that distract us from what life's real objective (at least in my opinion) is: to love and be loved. Love in all its forms: passionate love with our partner, parental love and respect, love for the people that mean something in our lives: siblings, relatives, friends, neighbors, etc.. It is while looking for those special people (who sometimes can prove to be so elusive, especially when they are needed the most) that we must also meet people who let us down and whom we idealize, only to find out that they are nothin of what we thought of them.
We fall in love with people, but we also fall in love with our idealized image of people. It is not fair for them or for us but we do it nonetheless. Growing wise sometimes means learning to accept people the way they are and accept the world the way it is. It is in a way the death of our illusions, but it is also a step that helps us build a shell which protects us from all the hurtful things that people can (knowingly or not) do to us.
It is perhaps time to give up on trying to find that special something or someone and settle for what life offers us. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately), there are still people (like me) who are still idealistic and who (at least for now) would not settle for less than what we expect from life. It is those people that I am always trying to find, unfortunately with little success most of the time.